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I read my last entries, and one about Cory just made me start crying all over again, I went an entire year feeling ugly and unwanted, I don't even know why I would do that to myself.  Re-reading it, everything I felt then, I still feel.  I don't think I feel anything anymore.  When I kiss someone it generates the same amount of happiness brushing my hair or making a pot of coffee does.  I miss my friends, both real life and WoW friends.  I was really happy for the first time a week or so ago when I hung out at Yans' place, but havnt been invited back, or asked to hang out.  I don't know what to do to prove my worth to my friends, but I don't feel like anyone ever wants to have me over for fun. Even my best freind since 3rd grade doesnt call me or invite me to go out.  But I'm always the first to get called if anything exciting happens, or to hear about the parties she goes to or the fun nights out she has.  I feel so estranged and lonely, I don't know what to do besides to keep trying and waiting for somone to want to treat me like a freind.

Oh ya and lately my hate of being crippled has quadroupled.

I'm not dead yet.  I still live out in BFE.  I still have the best dog in the world. My boyfreind is moving out of my apartment tommorrow.  That's about it.

I'm an Avon Lady!  My website is  http://www.youravon.com/kanderson2225.  Bookmark it, and Buy Stuff!  Mmm thats all for now!

In a lot of pop songs and R&B/Hip Hop songs, there is some sort of rapper guy not always the same one in all, and they call the female singer "Dog Child" or "Dark Child". I think the first time I heard it was on a Brandy cd like 8 years ago, but since I've heard it in Ashanti songs, Spice Girls songs, Ciarra, Rhianna, ect. What does it mean? At first I thought it was a nick name, But they cant all have the same nick name can they? Where did it come from? Who started the trend of calling female singers "Dog Child" or "Dark Child"?

My wonderful boyfreind is moving in with me in a few days, I'm super excited. A bit worried the past month or so he's acted like an asshole 40% of the time, I'm hoping it's just because he's stressed about the move, and getting a new job, and blah blah blah. We've been together for a Year as of April 15th, and it's about time he'll be in the same time zone as me! I'm amazed that dad gave us his blessing. I think after Jarred though, my dad would bless anyone who didnt make me cry practically everyday. Rofl. I'm just happy, I got a new puppy, which will probably be the only child me and Cory will have for a long time because, well, I just dont want to pop out watermelons. I've achieved so much emotionaly over the last two years. It's really amazing, I found out what love is supposed to be like, which helped me cope with the Jarred thing, because it wasnt love it was some infactuation and freindship that went together and had a bad reaction. But as my aunt would say, dating is like buying shoes, you keep trying them on untill you find the right one. I truly feel like Cinderella because I dont think anyone else is a more perfect fit. And on top of that goodness, we will have really cute kids because our features compliment eachother, and we both have great eyes so our kids will have great eyes. Yay! I dont really have much else to talk about, I hate the DMV, I still dont have my lisence, fuckers. I blame them, not that I didnt have a driver with me when I went to take the test. It's really hot today, I got new Caddyshack PJ bottoms with Gophers on them with little quotes like "...not golfers. Gophers!" hehe. Mmmm thats all I got for you today , but eh! it's an update so no complainin!

I got so many replies so quickly to my question in one of the communities I posted too, and with nice funny people that maybe LJ isn't actually filled with crazy dramatic bishes who are just out there to cause shite. So theres lots of stuff new I suppose but since I promised like.. forever ago I would update and even gave you topics, I'll start on that.

Chapter One : A year back in Sacto, reflections, regrets, happy moments.
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Chapter Two : Sac City-A new kinda environment.
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Chapter Three: The saga of my Broken Leg (Not yet completed)
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Chapter Four: A surgery to start anew.
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So to sum up the entry (you can still read the cuts for the gritty details)
In the year 2005 I broke off the fucked up relationship with Jarred, I lost a ton of Sacramento Friends, I turned into a hermit that played way too much WoW, I got incredibly sick and took a year off of school. I had a "slutty" period. Dropped the slut thang, and found my future husband, made new friends, and had another life changing surgery, gained another level of independence with the red convertible. OH yes and got the first broken bone of my life. Sawweeet.

What emotion/feeling/face is :3 ?

Theres a person in my WoW guild that does it after everything he says, and it just looks like boobs to me... and he cant possibly punctuate everything with boobs. or maybe he can I dont know. But its driving me crazy not knowing and he wont tell me.

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Where do I begin? Hmmm Well I think I'll start at now and work my way back. Right now I am sitting in my room while my most wonderful boyfreind in the entire world is bonding/shopping with Papa O, I feel like I'm about to pass out. The passing out would be due to the percocet and zanaflex (muscle spasm medicine) that I'm on to take care of my abdomen which was cut open on November 15th. The operation went well, the tube was placed and nothing looks infected. However there is a lot of pain, and my wonderful man has been there to hold me and rock me through my tears of pain. <3 *sigh* He's so wonderful. I think Papa O really likes him too, I know Pegi does. I cant wait for thanksgiving its just going to be us four I think so it'll be nice, small, and intimate. Soooo tired, going to go nap...i'll finish this later.

Today is mah Birthday! WEeeeee I'm 20!

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Somone....anyone...laugh....and dont take offense...

Wow, Well freinds, It's been a while hasnt it? I start off by apologizing for my hermit lifestyle many of you have been witness to, those include but arnt limited one of my long time friends that I havnt talked to in over a year Miss Bronze. After my body crapped out on me last summer, and then the drama with Jarred I figured that it would be in my best interest to hole up and be a hermit for a while. So, I am sorry for being a hermit.

Now onto the juicy. Because this post is going to be about 10 pages long I will give you a simple outline of what to look forward to.

Chapter One : A year back in Sacto, reflections, regrets, happy moments.

Chapter Two : Sac City-A new kinda environment.

Chapter Three: The saga of my Broken Leg (Not yet completed)

Chapter Four: A surgery to start anew.

I'll start writing the chapters tonight...

For Barb!

55! I'm on the hunt for ore now...that dreadsteed will be mine muahahhaha. I'm tired, been crying for like 3 hours. Oh god when will it end? seriously. *sigh*
"Could I be mistaken, believing that you really cared?"
<3 Joss Stone





I miss James.

I got the cutest valentine's day card evar! *swoons* How super is he? Oh he's super duper super. *tries not to fall* yea..that super.
hehe..enough of that mushiness *sticks tounge out*

Razzles...although strangly addicting..are really gross...and the gum part is like black. Ewww...but at the same time i cant stop popping them.

I went to auto-rama. Greatest thing Cal Expo hosts seriously. I could do without the rice burners, and boom room. But other than that it kicks ass. I just wanna hump all the classic cars. Bring em on!

I'm dealing with a stalkerish person. She freaks me out. I ignore her calls..then she calls the house....then my cell phone again. *sigh* I'm too nice to tell her I find her annoying, compulsive, and i dont want to be her friend. Although, if she keeps pushing I'm sure I wont find it so hard to keep from turning into a dragon on her.

Hehe...for the most part Ive been pretty happy. I miss the woods terribly. Like...want to hop a plane and hide out in my Big Sis's dorm room. Other than that, school's alright, Steph is around and it's good. I have James which thrills me to no end.


and in the World of Warcraft

Ajora is almost 60 which sucks ass cause he's gonna be raiding before me and Freaya can catch up *sigh* I'm almost 55. and have 3/8 of my Dreadmist. Hella gold. *laughs* Im a money maker, and I have like..3 60's to shower me in love and presents. hehe that gnome is a hottie, she brings all the boys and the girls to the yard. *laughs* I got my Robes of the Void pattern, just need some more essances and felcloth and I'll be whipping that up in no time WooHoo! annnd I went on my first LBRS raid.. it was...interesting. Got like 8 blues though, a nice trinket and a staff that a lot of people want! Booya! The Girls rocks my socks...my Officer Socks. Hehe Recruiter Kimi wee! Or more appropriate "Den Mother". So yepp. yay WoW, yay James, Yay in general. I'm off to do stuff.


Valentine.. be happy I updated just for you! *hugs*

Korea, Aldrina needs Freaya the tank/priest get rid of your mono!

Life is interesting.
I miss James.
I wish he wasnt mad at me.
I wish he had a phone.
I wish he didnt live so fucking far away.
I wish he would talk to me and tell me everything was okay.

I'm sore, and I just want to go to sleep and do yesterday all over again.
I feel sick. blargh

                                                 New Years Eve Bash with your Hostess' Adria and Kimi

• Where?  Kimi's Casa   2333 Castro Way call for directions
• When?   December 31st, 8pmish
• Why?  To celebrate the end of '05 and the Beginning of '06. plus you get to see Adria's new man
• How shall we celebrate?  With Booze and Munchies!!!   Please bring some if over 21, or be prepared to buy some when you get here :-P  BYOB

Please send me a note, or call if you are coming,  You are welcome to bring guests, I just need to know how many 

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Good riddance.

thats basically it..
But I'll go into detail

He cofounded the Crips...enough reason in my opinion to be put to death.

Then he killed some people ruined more lives, the usual of a gang member. reason to be killed.

he wrote a book...Whoopdie freaking doo how many kids is he really keeping from going into gangs? really? When you are living on the streets and starving and its either kill somone to survive or read a book and starve...what are you gonna do?
*shrug* not a good enough reason to keep him alive.

This should have happend a long time ago. Like as soon as he was sentenced. Good job Arnie!

That's my thoughts. Hmm I wonder what jamie foxx thinks.. He played tookie in that movie...hmm i shall google.


Oh in way better and happier and Cooler news. I turned 40, got my FREE MOUNT and I'm pretty damn happy. Woo!

Oh also survived 2 nights in the hospitol yay my body hating me!! wooo *dies*

Just a note to let her friends in the woods and other places know Kimi is not avoiding anyone, she is in the hospital. We don't think it is too serious but well wishes and prayers are always welcome.