Blah..Blah...Blah

Life is so busy

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 06:34:25 GMT

I read my last entries, and one about Cory just made me start crying all over again, I went an entire year feeling ugly and unwanted, I don't even know why I would do that to myself. Re-reading it, everything I felt then, I still feel. I don't think I feel anything anymore. When I kiss someone it generates the same amount of happiness brushing my hair or making a pot of coffee does. I miss my friends, both real life and WoW friends. I was really happy for the first time a week or so ago when I hung out at Yans' place, but havnt been invited back, or asked to hang out. I don't know what to do to prove my worth to my friends, but I don't feel like anyone ever wants to have me over for fun. Even my best freind since 3rd grade doesnt call me or invite me to go out. But I'm always the first to get called if anything exciting happens, or to hear about the parties she goes to or the fun nights out she has. I feel so estranged and lonely, I don't know what to do besides to keep trying and waiting for somone to want to treat me like a freind.

Oh ya and lately my hate of being crippled has quadroupled.

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 20:49:49 GMT

I'm not dead yet. I still live out in BFE. I still have the best dog in the world. My boyfreind is moving out of my apartment tommorrow. That's about it.

I'm an Avon Lady!

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 08:43:54 GMT

I'm an Avon Lady! My website is http://www.youravon.com/kanderson2225. Bookmark it, and Buy Stuff! Mmm thats all for now!

What does it mean? Where does it come from?

Tue, 08 May 2007 02:00:25 GMT

In a lot of pop songs and R&B/Hip Hop songs, there is some sort of rapper guy not always the same one in all, and they call the female singer "Dog Child" or "Dark Child". I think the first time I heard it was on a Brandy cd like 8 years ago, but since I've heard it in Ashanti songs, Spice Girls songs, Ciarra, Rhianna, ect. What does it mean? At first I thought it was a nick name, But they cant all have the same nick name can they? Where did it come from? Who started the trend of calling female singers "Dog Child" or "Dark Child"?

Tue, 08 May 2007 00:58:53 GMT

My wonderful boyfreind is moving in with me in a few days, I'm super excited. A bit worried the past month or so he's acted like an asshole 40% of the time, I'm hoping it's just because he's stressed about the move, and getting a new job, and blah blah blah. We've been together for a Year as of April 15th, and it's about time he'll be in the same time zone as me! I'm amazed that dad gave us his blessing. I think after Jarred though, my dad would bless anyone who didnt make me cry practically everyday. Rofl. I'm just happy, I got a new puppy, which will probably be the only child me and Cory will have for a long time because, well, I just dont want to pop out watermelons. I've achieved so much emotionaly over the last two years. It's really amazing, I found out what love is supposed to be like, which helped me cope with the Jarred thing, because it wasnt love it was some infactuation and freindship that went together and had a bad reaction. But as my aunt would say, dating is like buying shoes, you keep trying them on untill you find the right one. I truly feel like Cinderella because I dont think anyone else is a more perfect fit. And on top of that goodness, we will have really cute kids because our features compliment eachother, and we both have great eyes so our kids will have great eyes. Yay! I dont really have much else to talk about, I hate the DMV, I still dont have my lisence, fuckers. I blame them, not that I didnt have a driver with me when I went to take the test. It's really hot today, I got new Caddyshack PJ bottoms with Gophers on them with little quotes like "...not golfers. Gophers!" hehe. Mmmm thats all I got for you today , but eh! it's an update so no complainin!

My faith in LJ has been restored, I might actually use the damn thing again.

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 02:06:00 GMT

I got so many replies so quickly to my question in one of the communities I posted too, and with nice funny people that maybe LJ isn't actually filled with crazy dramatic bishes who are just out there to cause shite. So theres lots of stuff new I suppose but since I promised like.. forever ago I would update and even gave you topics, I'll start on that.

Chapter One : A year back in Sacto, reflections, regrets, happy moments.
Wow, so much can happen in one year, so much and so little at the same time. Learned a valuable lesson on mixing up infatuation with love. That never-ending Jarred saga finally ended painfully, and with tears, but on my terms, and for the better for both of us. Since then I have learned what real love is, what it's like to be loved, and how a real relationship is supposed to be. No sneaking behind other girl's backs, no more one sided "I love you"s, and defiantly no more "so confused about the situation I want to cry for hours and hours". I dated actual pure dating this year, and found the guy of my dreams and future husband. What are the chances of that eh?! I realized that I don't have friends in Sacramento, so the reason for moving back kinda wasn't there as much as I thought it was. But like anything I do, I learned and moved on. People change from third grade, I've changed since third grade, i just wish we could have changed and stayed friends. It would be nice to have someone to fall back on when in need. I bought a car, and am still working on getting my license, the body rebelling against me for a year postponed that. (See A Surgery to Start Anew for more details).

Chapter Two : Sac City-A new kinda environment.
City College, wow, smaller campus, lots more people than SMWC! Way better food, no dorms, and not a *real* feel. Last year is kinda written off I dont think I did well/completed any courses I took because of health problems. However, this year I plan to make the best of it. that pretty much sums that one up!

Chapter Three: The saga of my Broken Leg (Not yet completed)
Zomg, the ridiculousness of it all. So basically July 4th I was in the shower getting ready to go out for the night and fell. When I fell, my leg twisted underneath me and cracked the bone. However due to the wonders of Paralysis I didn't feel it and went on with the shower,getting ready ect. When I was dressed and putting on my shoes my head started pounding! I felt like I was going to die, and when i picked up my foot to put the shoe on, i heard crunching and felt the bottom part of my ankle twist farther then usual, this proceeded to an emergency ride to Sutter, since UCD had like a 20 hour wait. They splinted it, and sent me home. Next day the splint didn't hold and my head blew up again so took the ambulance to UCD went into dysreflexic shock in their emergency area that was way over packed and there were tons of other sick people on gurneys, finally saw some doctors got an x-ray, and got casted. The cast gave me a pressure sore which sent my head into another dysreflexic fit so had to go back at the end of the week and get it cut off and a new one put on, then for the following two months went back every week to get it x-rayed and a new cast so i wouldnt get more pressure sores. Finally got the cast off in October. And was in a boot for what felt like ever. And that, was my first broken bone of my life.

Chapter Four: A surgery to start anew.
Basically, the people close enough to know me know the problems I had this year and why I hermited up, they have been fixed and I should be back to my old self. Yay surgeries! I'm like the bionic woman now.
So to sum up the entry (you can still read the cuts for the gritty details)
In the year 2005 I broke off the fucked up relationship with Jarred, I lost a ton of Sacramento Friends, I turned into a hermit that played way too much WoW, I got incredibly sick and took a year off of school. I had a "slutty" period. Dropped the slut thang, and found my future husband, made new friends, and had another life changing surgery, gained another level of independence with the red convertible. OH yes and got the first broken bone of my life. Sawweeet.

What is this!?

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 23:47:41 GMT

What emotion/feeling/face is :3 ?

Theres a person in my WoW guild that does it after everything he says, and it just looks like boobs to me... and he cant possibly punctuate everything with boobs. or maybe he can I dont know. But its driving me crazy not knowing and he wont tell me.

xposted to thequestionclub

omg an update

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 21:25:21 GMT

Where do I begin? Hmmm Well I think I'll start at now and work my way back. Right now I am sitting in my room while my most wonderful boyfreind in the entire world is bonding/shopping with Papa O, I feel like I'm about to pass out. The passing out would be due to the percocet and zanaflex (muscle spasm medicine) that I'm on to take care of my abdomen which was cut open on November 15th. The operation went well, the tube was placed and nothing looks infected. However there is a lot of pain, and my wonderful man has been there to hold me and rock me through my tears of pain. <3 *sigh* He's so wonderful. I think Papa O really likes him too, I know Pegi does. I cant wait for thanksgiving its just going to be us four I think so it'll be nice, small, and intimate. Soooo tired, going to go nap...i'll finish this later.

Birthday Birthday Birthday

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 19:37:25 GMT

Today is mah Birthday! WEeeeee I'm 20!

For something really random...and funny.

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 01:10:31 GMT

http://drinkinginlexsroom.podomatic.com/

Somone....anyone...laugh....and dont take offense...

My broken leg kinda looks neat.

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 20:38:15 GMT

Hmm So I decided to update this little thing called a journal.

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 04:14:18 GMT

Wow, Well freinds, It's been a while hasnt it? I start off by apologizing for my hermit lifestyle many of you have been witness to, those include but arnt limited one of my long time friends that I havnt talked to in over a year Miss Bronze. After my body crapped out on me last summer, and then the drama with Jarred I figured that it would be in my best interest to hole up and be a hermit for a while. So, I am sorry for being a hermit.

Now onto the juicy. Because this post is going to be about 10 pages long I will give you a simple outline of what to look forward to.

Chapter One : A year back in Sacto, reflections, regrets, happy moments.

Chapter Two : Sac City-A new kinda environment.

Chapter Three: The saga of my Broken Leg (Not yet completed)

Chapter Four: A surgery to start anew.

I'll start writing the chapters tonight...

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 06:05:18 GMT

For Barb!

Am I really that type A?

Thu, 18 May 2006 01:07:09 GMT

Your Birthdate: October 28

You have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame.
You never shy away from adversity - and you love to tackle impossible problems.
Failure is not an option for you, and more than a few people are put off by your ego.
You tend to be controlling, and you hate leaving anything up to chance.

Your strength: Your bold approach to life

Your weakness: You don't accept help

Your power color: Bronze

Your power symbol: Pyramid

Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 01:02:49 GMT

55! I'm on the hunt for ore now...that dreadsteed will be mine muahahhaha. I'm tired, been crying for like 3 hours. Oh god when will it end? seriously. *sigh*
"Could I be mistaken, believing that you really cared?"
<3 Joss Stone

I miss James.

I'm the geek in the pink sings

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 22:35:09 GMT

I got the cutest valentine's day card evar! *swoons* How super is he? Oh he's super duper super. *tries not to fall* yea..that super.
hehe..enough of that mushiness *sticks tounge out*

Razzles...although strangly addicting..are really gross...and the gum part is like black. Ewww...but at the same time i cant stop popping them.

I went to auto-rama. Greatest thing Cal Expo hosts seriously. I could do without the rice burners, and boom room. But other than that it kicks ass. I just wanna hump all the classic cars. Bring em on!

I'm dealing with a stalkerish person. She freaks me out. I ignore her calls..then she calls the house....then my cell phone again. *sigh* I'm too nice to tell her I find her annoying, compulsive, and i dont want to be her friend. Although, if she keeps pushing I'm sure I wont find it so hard to keep from turning into a dragon on her.

Hehe...for the most part Ive been pretty happy. I miss the woods terribly. Like...want to hop a plane and hide out in my Big Sis's dorm room. Other than that, school's alright, Steph is around and it's good. I have James which thrills me to no end.

and in the World of Warcraft

Ajora is almost 60 which sucks ass cause he's gonna be raiding before me and Freaya can catch up *sigh* I'm almost 55. and have 3/8 of my Dreadmist. Hella gold. *laughs* Im a money maker, and I have like..3 60's to shower me in love and presents. hehe that gnome is a hottie, she brings all the boys and the girls to the yard. *laughs* I got my Robes of the Void pattern, just need some more essances and felcloth and I'll be whipping that up in no time WooHoo! annnd I went on my first LBRS raid.. it was...interesting. Got like 8 blues though, a nice trinket and a staff that a lot of people want! Booya! The Girls rocks my socks...my Officer Socks. Hehe Recruiter Kimi wee! Or more appropriate "Den Mother". So yepp. yay WoW, yay James, Yay in general. I'm off to do stuff.

Valentine.. be happy I updated just for you! *hugs*

Korea, Aldrina needs Freaya the tank/priest get rid of your mono!

soo its been a long long time

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 05:47:45 GMT

Life is interesting.
I miss James.
I wish he wasnt mad at me.
I wish he had a phone.
I wish he didnt live so fucking far away.
I wish he would talk to me and tell me everything was okay.

I'm sore, and I just want to go to sleep and do yesterday all over again.
I feel sick. blargh

New Years...Kinda short notice sorry, was out of town for a little bit

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 21:59:04 GMT

New Years Eve Bash with your Hostess' Adria and Kimi

Where? Kimi's Casa 2333 Castro Way call for directions
When? December 31st, 8pmish
Why? To celebrate the end of '05 and the Beginning of '06. plus you get to see Adria's new man
How shall we celebrate? With Booze and Munchies!!! Please bring some if over 21, or be prepared to buy some when you get here :-P BYOB

Please send me a note, or call if you are coming, You are welcome to bring guests, I just need to know how many

916-203-0999

My take on Tookie

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 23:47:46 GMT

Good riddance.

thats basically it..
But I'll go into detail

He cofounded the Crips...enough reason in my opinion to be put to death.

Then he killed some people ruined more lives, the usual of a gang member. reason to be killed.

he wrote a book...Whoopdie freaking doo how many kids is he really keeping from going into gangs? really? When you are living on the streets and starving and its either kill somone to survive or read a book and starve...what are you gonna do?
*shrug* not a good enough reason to keep him alive.

This should have happend a long time ago. Like as soon as he was sentenced. Good job Arnie!

That's my thoughts. Hmm I wonder what jamie foxx thinks.. He played tookie in that movie...hmm i shall google.

Oh in way better and happier and Cooler news. I turned 40, got my FREE MOUNT and I'm pretty damn happy. Woo!

Oh also survived 2 nights in the hospitol yay my body hating me!! wooo *dies*

Hi, Not Kimi, Pegi (aka BlondeRoots aka Stepper)

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 05:36:59 GMT

Just a note to let her friends in the woods and other places know Kimi is not avoiding anyone, she is in the hospital. We don't think it is too serious but well wishes and prayers are always welcome.

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 21:08:17 GMT

Hsppy Thanksgiving I hope everyone has lots to be thankful for

WoW Screen shots anybody?

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 04:49:35 GMT

Me and Mah Hunny *kisses and hugs*

and then a cut for WoW lesbians/Aldrina the bisexual Gnome muahahah

Ohhhh my! hahha

Dear Livejournal,

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 21:52:59 GMT

I'm sorry Ive neglected you for my other love...World of Warcraft. I dont know if you understand how hard it is to keep 2 alliance characters and a Horde character up and running. It takes a lot of work Livejournal...so stop acting like we've broken up. Really, I promise WoW isnt my mistress, simply something else to do while I'm bored. I still love you Livejournal...and I'll keep coming back as long as the servers on WoW keep going down *curses cenarion*.

Dear Wow,
You'r fucking awesome and i heart you. *snuggles*

Hehe and I heart you too James *floaty heart bubbles*

I want the new 360 cause it's really sexay and yea...sexayness

I cant stand the poodle...she's always licking her punan or barking.. its driving me insane. I love Poppy, my old fart. I love old animals.

ADRIA COME GET YER DAMN BLANKET or I'll have to claim it as my own. because its wonderful and I want one just like it hehe.

Bronze we need to have lunch, I have many things I would like to talk to you about. Starting off with "I'm sorry for being a bitch" .

I need to scheduale my drivers test...I'll do that today..right now actually..wait no...have to wait and see when i get the wisdom teeth pulled.
Oh bejeesus its gonna hurt and I'm scared *shakes*
I think I'm more afraid of the bloody socket healing process going on in my mouth x4 than i am the actual pain.

I have caramel stuck to my tounge ring. Bah.

I really dont like my photography professor..i wish i had the hot guy.

The Hot Guy before mentioned reminds me of Pat, its kinda scary.

I need to find a hiding place before Thanksgiving comes. *starts looking for a hole to hide in*

I also need to take pictures of my new glasses..because they are pure sex...and my newer redder hair hehe
and i need to start getting ready to go back to the Woods, or something other than city *cringe* I hate even saying i go there. *dies*

Hmm I think that is all I have right now...all I can think about is WoW I dream about killing murlocks and getting Lustrious pearls ....oh yea its that bad.

hehe thank you Turner for bringing out the Gamer Girl in me. Hehe and I have my Gamer boy so I'm all set. *squeels* hehe and i still need to put those screenshots up for Tisha. I'll get on that my dear.

Sorry Im late Regina. And Happy Birthday!

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 07:16:44 GMT

10 years ago I was...
- 9 years old
- in elementary school
- I was still able to walk
- I was madly in love with Somerset
- I thought Macarena was AWESOME ((and screwed up majorly doing it on diamond vision at an Oakland a's game))

5 years ago I was...
- 14 years old
- fighting horribly with my parents in California and moving to Indiana to start my sophomore year
- had my first girlfriend
- had my first kiss with a girl that actually meant something
- had my first horrible break up and heartbreak...which continued for another 5 years

1 year ago I was...
- 18 years old
- a freshman in college
- drinking illegally and lovin' it
- Falling in love with a girl for the first time and having many firsts with her.
- Having my second horrible heart break.

Yesterday I...
- Thinking about James
- playing WoW
- Talking to my personal trainer
- Pondering my future

5 snacks I enjoy...
- gold fish
- snickers
- peanut m&m's
- pegi's chocolate moose
- kettle corn

5 songs I know all the words to...
- Last Resort- Papa Roach
- A thousand miles- Vennessa Carlton
- Happy Birthday
- barbie girl - aqua
-

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars...
- Put away college funds for all three of my little brothers
- Put my step father in jail
- Make the best houses for my parents and a separate one for me
-
- buy a house for my dad

5 places I would run away to...
- Somone specials arms
- Curtis Park ((childhood memories i dunno))
- Australia
- New York
- Wherever my dad is

5 things I would never wear...
- Combat boots
- A tuxedo
- Chains
- a really butch hair cut ... (does that count?)
- ummm and gaudy jewelry

5 favorite tv shows...
- The O.C.
- Silly VH1 shows
- Family Guy
- Futurama
- Degrassi (yea that’s right bitches The N kicks ass)
(that’s really all I can think of, I don’t watch tv much)

5 bad habits...
- Flirting
- procrastinating
- Speaking my mind all the time
- Not carrying my camera everywhere
- Hating people for stupid reasons

5 biggest joys...
- music
- My family
- Stephanie
- My pets
- my Dad

5 fictional characters I would date...
- Trent (from daria one hot mofo..)
- Summer or Seth from O.C. Hell both at once I don’t care they are hot mofo’s too
- Oliver Wood from hary potter
- Katherine Zeta Jone’s character in that movie about the haunted house…hooooot
- Laura Croft

5 people I tag to do this...
- James
- Valentine
- Barb
- Rian Sneider
- You

Ah yes, to the anonymous poster

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 23:10:20 GMT

Dont you feel special? You can say rude things but not claim them? What a loser. Seriously